tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21757973715201285332011-07-07T19:02:05.248-07:00my world~my languageslaygrubhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05881665758789153741noreply@blogger.comBlogger121100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2175797371520128533.post-86226329186751815202009-06-24T17:25:00.000-07:002009-06-24T17:25:01.128-07:00<span style="font-family: courier new;"><span style="color: rgb(102, 51, 51);">i miss myself, boyfriend...family...<br /></span></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2175797371520128533-8622632918675181520?l=slaygrub.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>slaygrubhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05881665758789153741noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2175797371520128533.post-88881302639266697852009-06-23T19:51:00.000-07:002009-07-29T01:52:54.829-07:00somehow i don feel like i have a bestfriend...<br />and it is just bad for a 22 years old girl being alone...<br />luckily i have a boyfriend..<br />iv been pretty serious lately...<br />it feels so hard to just get someone that u can be good with...<br />im stressed...im stressed..im stressed...<br />i wnt to cry, but im afraid my eyes would get dry...and my soul might just died...<br />the true is i miss my car...i miss my boyfriend..<br />somehow i think that he is the only one i have right now...<br />owh my tears just cannot hold any longer...<br />no matter how bad my friend is, im still gona hold this friendship...<br /><br />and im fed up when people keep getting better...<br />i envy hw they could hold their life together...<br />well i know i can b one...<br />i just need to calm and take a deep breath...<br />i love my boyfriend and all my girlfriends<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2175797371520128533-8888130263926669785?l=slaygrub.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>slaygrubhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05881665758789153741noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2175797371520128533.post-20033426685897363312009-05-27T10:23:00.000-07:002009-07-29T01:55:02.893-07:00im destroyed by ur stupid love<br />u promised me future but it yours<br />you r selfish<br />took away everything that i hv ever dreamed of<br />u blamed me for everything<br />u never be the bad guy<br />coz everything is about u<br /><br />now im satisfied<br />there's a guy for me out there<br />who care and treat me like i wanted<br />makes me crazier everytime his around<br />it s not bout i love u<br />3 stupid words u manipulated<br />it is all bout the heart<br />the heart is taking over<br />he let mine and his heart spoken out together<br /><br />this isnt bout yours and only u<br />u r arrogant and bragging bout what you ve got<br />obviously it just nothing<br />coz i know u have nothing everytime<br />hope u could change<br />but u blow it everytime<br />burn my trust and hope i had on u<br />all the wishes has turned into ashes.<br />well u ruined it<br /><br />now im satisfied<br />there's a guy for me out there<br />who care and treat me like i wanted<br />makes me crazier everytime his around<br />it s not bout i love u<br />3 stupid words u manipulated<br />it is all bout the heart<br />the heart is taking over<br />he let mine and his heart spoken out together<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2175797371520128533-2003342668589736331?l=slaygrub.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>slaygrubhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05881665758789153741noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2175797371520128533.post-37228750117772747452009-01-16T08:05:00.000-08:002009-07-29T01:56:42.917-07:00i was alone...<br />it was empty<br />all i can see was just a vacant alley<br />nobody knows<br />i am needing...i am begging..i am just sobbing<br />the pain of having, the pain of gaining,<br />i realize all of it was just losing... and falling..<br />when all this will stop???..<br />i keep wondering<br />all the memory<br />running and changing<br />i still stiff and lonely...<br /><br />finally u came hold my hands in yours<br />lift me up and soar..<br />owh i'm trapping more and more...<br />would it be the SAY???..or would it be the HEART???<br />coz at the end you are the one who is suffering..<br />make up your mind and change..<br />revolutionize in vein..<br />feel the penetrating..<br /><br />but it doesnt work..<br />it is just shadow, vague and fiendish..<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2175797371520128533-3722875011777274745?l=slaygrub.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>slaygrubhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05881665758789153741noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2175797371520128533.post-60177503330678208222008-11-03T19:03:00.000-08:002008-11-03T19:03:01.027-08:00the pain of losing could be very hard to admit...<br />but there are a lot of things that are more graceful than winning...<br />sometimes it is better to lose once than to lose everything..<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2175797371520128533-6017750333067820822?l=slaygrub.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>slaygrubhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05881665758789153741noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2175797371520128533.post-86333907420305574612008-11-02T00:35:00.000-07:002008-11-02T00:38:55.366-07:00<center>world can sometimes be so cruel<br />killing my soul deeply<br />mercy hasn't come with justice<br />hanging me high to be witness by the world<br />people hate for what i am<br />looking down seem to be the only way<br />respect for the material and wealthy</center><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2175797371520128533-8633390742030557461?l=slaygrub.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>slaygrubhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05881665758789153741noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2175797371520128533.post-31152368043155339682008-11-01T18:41:00.000-07:002009-01-15T07:11:31.098-08:00<span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);font-family:courier new;" ><em><strong>hemh my life will completely change next semester...</strong></em></span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);font-family:courier new;" ><em><strong>i don know how do i know this...but i'm sure it will...</strong></em></span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);font-family:courier new;" ><em><strong>even if it is not all...a liltle of it will revolutionized all of it...</strong></em></span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);font-family:courier new;" ><em><strong>i have never write any matter bout my happiness in here...i am potraying myself as a person who hahas experience any happiness in life...</strong></em></span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);font-family:courier new;" ><em><strong>lily the thing that i wana talk to you is.... it is not that i don trust u...but i'm afraid, that i could not handle it when you are not around...i mean there time you will be leaving me...alone..that moment will make me have no one to talk to..i know u'll have my back..but i'm not willing to let you be that person for long...i want u to be the fren who i could share my happiness to...the thing that i want to share is about our fren..and she is yours too...so i don want it to ruin our friendship...plus i got over it... it is true...i don noe how long will this good moment gona last...but i'm epi to have you as a bestfren...i even write you a poem...but i don want to post it now...but i will...hemh don forget to post my crap on the little tiny crumpled paper that i gave u.</strong></em></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2175797371520128533-3115236804315533968?l=slaygrub.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>slaygrubhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05881665758789153741noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2175797371520128533.post-12682723633719457722008-09-21T00:08:00.000-07:002008-09-22T08:05:08.963-07:00damn im so mad at my parent...<br />they knew the reason why didnt i returned home nearly a month...<br />i used to go home every week..<br />after all this time the guilty of not telling the truth has caught me into a dead meat..<br />damn.. it so outta my head thatthey actually know..<br />that is just so fuck..<br />i don really like when i have to put myself like a fucking kid....<br />now i don wana think that they had helped me in anything...<br />non of them had helped me in my study....<br />i did everything all by myself.. do any of them have to be credited for the thing that they havent taken any responsibility for???<br />should i..argh stop thinking about good think...<br />if im succeed this time i would not mention any of them...no one can be trusted...now i am all alone..oh lord i hate them so much..<br />forcing me hard to like what they like... im not who i am...<br />all my life iv been forcing to be somebody that i hate... idont wana be a good girl..<br />owh i hate them... i do hate when i think about home.... huh the hatred feeling had make me hate them more...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2175797371520128533-1268272363371945772?l=slaygrub.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>slaygrubhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05881665758789153741noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2175797371520128533.post-78637410354172397152008-09-12T23:15:00.000-07:002008-09-12T08:06:27.461-07:00recently my life is plain when i think about home...<br />i don wana be a spoilt lil brat...<br /><br />life can be so hard when people are not be able to talk...<br />here i got my chance.. i do believe in frenship..<br />but my frens do not seen to appreciate it..<br />i used to have one good fren...<br />somehow a slight mistake FROM MY FWEN has ruined the realationship...<br />my fwen acted irritatingly in front of me ...i started to hate my fren..<br />it grows quick like a hurricane vanished the whole city..<br />i started to have bad / negative thoughht towards my fren...<br />hemh we still fren...but it meaningless...<br />i should believe in myself..<br />alone..<br />i'm a loner..<br />with a lonely soul..<br />i do noe who could help me...<br />let me out from this misery..<br />i wonder..<br />i'm dead inside..<br />luckily i met two new good boyfrenss..<br />i love azeem..<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2175797371520128533-7863741035417239715?l=slaygrub.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>slaygrubhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05881665758789153741noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2175797371520128533.post-68633680495075034052008-08-26T23:54:00.000-07:002008-08-26T08:55:06.631-07:00<span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><strong><span style="color:#33cc00;">Seriously he is fuck...<br />There is nothing I can say<br />Other than he is fuck...<br />All this while I’ve been asking myself<br />Is the feeling inside is hatred?<br />Is the feeling inside is caring?<br />Is the feeling inside is sympathy?<br />I’m confused, I’m confused<br />Ooh I’m sure it’s agony<br />Because I been suffering every time, every time<br />I think about that damn love...<br />I just hate the feeling when it arouses me...<br />I feel like I want to kick that jack ass<br />Hard, hard, real hard<br />Let him stumble on the floor<br />Stumble like a whore..</span></strong> </span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2175797371520128533-6863368049507503405?l=slaygrub.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>slaygrubhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05881665758789153741noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2175797371520128533.post-89913398421317962042008-08-26T08:57:00.000-07:002008-08-26T09:00:21.748-07:00after sucking time...<br />i finally get trough to my own blog<br />i cant believe!!!!<br />xtually.. it was my fren who help me with this<br />i never knew it's gonna be such a cool therapy..<br />c'mon join this cool blog<br />!!!!!!!!let's blogging<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2175797371520128533-8991339842131796204?l=slaygrub.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>slaygrubhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05881665758789153741noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2175797371520128533.post-38340278770279744952008-04-09T17:48:00.000-07:002008-09-04T02:52:09.113-07:00<p><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><strong>neither good nor bad that i want to be...<br />what i want to do is:</strong></span></span></p><p><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><strong><br />sleep less...</strong></span></span><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><strong><br />appreciate all the good life i live...<br />love the one who loves me..<br />tracing no to big stupid liar...<br />i really want somebody good to hear me out...<br />i am sobbing inside..<br />i am terrified<br />i really want to have someone who could spoilt me with their words...<br />to GRAB guys who can zealously listen to me...not a single objection...~</strong></span></span></p><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2175797371520128533-3834027877027974495?l=slaygrub.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>slaygrubhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05881665758789153741noreply@blogger.com0