i miss myself, boyfriend...family...
24.6.09
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23.6.09
alone and despair
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somehow i don feel like i have a bestfriend... and it is just bad for a 22 years old girl being alone... luckily i have a boyfriend.. iv been pretty serious lately... it feels so hard to just get someone that u can be good with... im stressed...im stressed..im stressed... i wnt to cry, but im afraid my eyes would get dry...and my soul might just died... the true is i miss my car...i miss my boyfriend.. somehow i think that he is the only one i have right now... owh my tears just cannot hold any longer... no matter how bad my friend is, im still gona hold this friendship... and im fed up when people keep getting better... i envy hw they could hold their life together... well i know i can b one... i just need to calm and take a deep breath... i love my boyfriend and all my girlfriends |
27.5.09
heart and self
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im destroyed by ur stupid love u promised me future but it yours you r selfish took away everything that i hv ever dreamed of u blamed me for everything u never be the bad guy coz everything is about u now im satisfied there's a guy for me out there who care and treat me like i wanted makes me crazier everytime his around it s not bout i love u 3 stupid words u manipulated it is all bout the heart the heart is taking over he let mine and his heart spoken out together this isnt bout yours and only u u r arrogant and bragging bout what you ve got obviously it just nothing coz i know u have nothing everytime hope u could change but u blow it everytime burn my trust and hope i had on u all the wishes has turned into ashes. well u ruined it now im satisfied there's a guy for me out there who care and treat me like i wanted makes me crazier everytime his around it s not bout i love u 3 stupid words u manipulated it is all bout the heart the heart is taking over he let mine and his heart spoken out together |
16.1.09
huh no one knows...
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i was alone... it was empty all i can see was just a vacant alley nobody knows i am needing...i am begging..i am just sobbing the pain of having, the pain of gaining, i realize all of it was just losing... and falling.. when all this will stop???.. i keep wondering all the memory running and changing i still stiff and lonely... finally u came hold my hands in yours lift me up and soar.. owh i'm trapping more and more... would it be the SAY???..or would it be the HEART??? coz at the end you are the one who is suffering.. make up your mind and change.. revolutionize in vein.. feel the penetrating.. but it doesnt work.. it is just shadow, vague and fiendish.. |
3.11.08
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the pain of losing could be very hard to admit... but there are a lot of things that are more graceful than winning... sometimes it is better to lose once than to lose everything.. |
2.11.08
tired!!!
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killing my soul deeply mercy hasn't come with justice hanging me high to be witness by the world people hate for what i am looking down seem to be the only way respect for the material and wealthy |
1.11.08
we are no longer together....hehe just a place to sit...
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hemh my life will completely change next semester... i don know how do i know this...but i'm sure it will... even if it is not all...a liltle of it will revolutionized all of it... i have never write any matter bout my happiness in here...i am potraying myself as a person who hahas experience any happiness in life... lily the thing that i wana talk to you is.... it is not that i don trust u...but i'm afraid, that i could not handle it when you are not around...i mean there time you will be leaving me...alone..that moment will make me have no one to talk to..i know u'll have my back..but i'm not willing to let you be that person for long...i want u to be the fren who i could share my happiness to...the thing that i want to share is about our fren..and she is yours too...so i don want it to ruin our friendship...plus i got over it... it is true...i don noe how long will this good moment gona last...but i'm epi to have you as a bestfren...i even write you a poem...but i don want to post it now...but i will...hemh don forget to post my crap on the little tiny crumpled paper that i gave u. |